I have long understood how dysfunctional families seems to be because they were not supposed to be like the “perfect families” potrayed by the movies.
I have always believed that we chose our families due to the challenges we selected in this lifetime. They are supposed to be challenging, pushing our buttons, ensure that we grow to be a better versions of ourselves everytime, and grow as big in love and many more.
Yes it’s an endless love and hate story. One may connect well with one member of the family /siblings but totally felt älien” to another. And what about parents? They seems to come from a different planet altogether.
Anyway, I realsied that whenever I wrote in my blog about something, the Universe seems to be “testing”me if I truly walk my talk or not.
And so, after decades of not meeting my birth father, I eventually agree to meet him. By now, he looked older, fragile and definitely wiser and repentant. I no longer can contain all those “stories” within me and held on to my ego.
And one thing, i told him was that, we have different pespectives. Although we can be polite and be open to each other’s views on life, we can never truly understand and be in each other’s shoes. We had grown miles apart that I don’t even know how to begin explaining that I decided, No. I’m just going to respect his way of life and, viceversa.
And he told me one thing that truly engraved in my mind was that, he is not a good RECEIVER of love. And that is crucial. It opens up a new understanding. And I get to see everything with fresh new eyes.
(You see as beings of love, we each prefer a certain mode of love currencies, some in forms of hugs and physical affections but some in forms of words in written or audio or both.
But if one is a poor receiver of love, then no matter what one party gave in currencies of love, the other will not be able to enjoy it and be happy. Perhaps their way of doing things may be to give it away.
For example: If I save up an entire year to give someone a beautiful branded bag like Prada, because it symbolises my endless love and affection for that person. but because that person has a glass ceiling on how much love he/she can received, and may feel unworthy about it, that present may be given to others out of charity. So the giver may feel rejected. While the other felt its the right thing to do and had no idea the “grievances”” caused in this situation.
I meant this is just one example. There are many more. The same applied to money. Everything is energy. Everything is interconnected. )
I have two beautiful successful step sisters which adds to his many accolades of him being a good father. But he was regretting the way he handled my childhood and education and growth and my two sisters kept mentioning that-we turned out ok.
Again, I understood what he meant because I was there. I faced those experiences as a child. And I just sat there silently listening. Kind of like a witness to this beautiful unfoldment of healing and cleansing between two souls.
I can never explain to anyone, what truly happened because we each see with different eyes and we put diferent meanings to different things. But I acknowledge that, due to the unsuccessful marriage between my parents, they both ahd learnt/unlearnt very important lessons and changed for a much better version and met better soul mates for each other and create two new families.
And as a result, both families have thrived and are happy.
So how can I still hold on to the resentments and pain, right? Though I had forgiven them, there were still remnants that need to be cleansed. And tears welled up in my eyes and streams of forgiveness just flowed between us.
It was truly a blessing to be in this moment.
For years, I had been feeling all sorts about capabilities of men because I felt that my role models have been great disappointment. But that moment, it felt like I’ve learnt a valuable lesson.
And then, I had to travel. It’s a joy. I was expecting much more fun and laughter. But I ended up stunned.
The Universe gave me a big kick in my arse.
I went to visit another father, my step-dad. He has been courageously accepted me and embraced me in my wild untamed ways. But somehow, that changed.
Suddenly, it felt like we were from different planets and I was a child again.
Of course, ego always plays a part in battles, but in this situation of mine it was wild.
I felt like there were remnants of pain I had hidden within and had not voiced them out, and suddenly in moments of anger, they came out raging.
What’s going on? I cannot seem to be able to control myself. And so I left…before I got worse or the situation worsens.
It took me awhile to grasp what’s going on. and the Universe has been very kind to guide me in this prediament.
I thought my energy towards men were healing drastically, and it was indeed the process but I wasn’t planning it to be this way. totally lost unsure where to go, I remembered that I was sharing with my kids before my travels that I had some “work” to do and the Universe (the boss up there) will guide me to do it (though I do not know what). I just had this “knowing”.
True enough, I went on a “healing spree” and got paid abundantly (not just in money form but in many more currencies of LOVE) for it.
This was supposed to be my vacation but I realised that these beautiful souls I met were grooming me for the next phase of life. Yes, I guide them to heal themselves but its always a two way process and partnership.
And of course, when one family seems to be “not working well”, another popped up in various packages of strangers.
Yes,my favorite European crashings- the warrior angels’ homes crashing “re-opened” this year. I was not prepared for it mentally cos I wanted to bask in my family’s love and home but the Universe thought otherwise. And i welcomed it with an open heart and arms.
And it doesnt matter whose families…
All families of the world, I welcome them as teachers/mentors of love.
And they welcomed me in their busy schedules and lives with much love and affection.
Truly grateful and I believe “my boss” (the Divine, Universe etc) will pay all their kindness and love with what they truly dreamt of, deserved and more.
About The Blogger: Lina Masrina is a soul blogger, intuitive heart coach and healing facilitator.
Her passion is to work with people and reconnect them to their truth: being love -authentic, peace, harmony, abundance and joyous. She is a certified healing and law of attraction coach, certified Ho’oponopono practitioner, Certified Emotion Code Practitioner and ATS bali healer (chieftain/kamituo).
In her free time, she travels spontaneously; “crashing” lovingly into locals’ homes, kitchens, road trips and even weddings. She is a foodie and has eaten some bizarre meats in the world like porcupine and horseshoe crab (as long it is Halal).
Her dream is to cover all 196 countries in this lifetime. Her blog is about her everyday peeling her own masks, while exploring vulnerability and authenticity and uncovering miracles of love. She lives in Singapore. But she work both locally and internationally. Do contact her at linamasrina gmail .
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